I live in "The waiting place." Dr. Seuss cautioned against it in the wonderful book "Oh the Places You'll Go"
You can get so confused that you’ll start in
to race down long wiggled roads at a break-necking pace
and grind on for miles across weirdish wild space,
headed, I fear, toward a most useless place.
The Waiting Place…for people just waiting.
Waiting for a train to go or a bus to come,
or a plane to go or the mail to come,
or the rain to go or the phone to ring,
or the snow to snow
or waiting around for a Yes or No
or waiting for their hair to grow.
Everyone is just waiting.
Waiting for the fish to bite
or waiting for wind to fly a kite
or waiting around for Friday night
or waiting, perhaps, for their Uncle Jake
or a pot to boil, or a Better Break or a string of pearls,
or a pair of pants or a wig with curls,
or Another Chance.
Everyone is just waiting.
I'm in that "useless place" right now. Waiting. And it's particularly frustrating when I have to wait for something Maggie related suring the school day while she's not even with me. I had my jacket on all ready I'm ready to go out but couldn't. I'm in a holding pattern. The oxygen guy called at 10AM and said he would be here between 11-2. Hmm. Should I run out quickly and come back or wait. I can't miss him,. the tank needs to be filled. I asked him "Do you think that's closer to 11 or closer to 2." He said between 11-12. OK. I'll wait here first. I did my banking on line, started another load of wash and folded the three loads that had piled up on top of the dryer. I cleaned the kitchen and started the dishwasher. It's only 11:45.
Tap tap tap.
I could clean out my dresser or my closet, but let's not be ridiculous about this whole thing.
ahh-- doorbell.
I write this a lot on your blog, I think:
ReplyDeleteSigh.
It's for feelings and situations that I do know.
And thank you for what you said about bears and fish. It was very powerful for me.